Going to bed
As a child, I never wanted to go to sleep. My parents have told me that as an infant I would sit in my bouncy chair with them and watch TV, but the moment they picked me up to take me to bed I would start crying. Until they put me back in the chair. I still stay up too late and I still watch too much TV.
Lately, we’ve tried to go to sleep earlier in the evening. 21:00 or so, with the intent of being asleep around 22:00. Maybe reading a litte from one of the 20+ unread books I have on my shelf. It’s still hard to fall asleep, but it’s even harder to stay asleep for the entire night. If I wake up, I have a very hard time falling back asleep. If I wake up at 04:00, I stay awake until my 06:00 or 07:15 alarm. I’ve experimented with using a “dumb” alarm clock and keeping my phone charging downstairs. That worked really well for about a week, then I stopped. That was dumb. I should get back to doing that.
My internal clock is set to wake up at 09:00. I think this has to do with summer TV shows for kids in Sweden. They always started at that 09:00, and I always watched it. I guess that’s another sign that I watch too much TV and that I put too much emphasis on those blocks of time. So much that it’s responsible for me being awake.
I’m supposed to start working at 08:30, but I rarely do anything useful before 09:00. Maybe shuffle some papers around. Real or virtual. 09:00 is still when I can switch over to being productive.
I’ve always hated naps. I don’t want to miss out on what is or might be happening around me. I wish I could.